Please forgive me for writing to you unsolicited. I need some advice and do not know to whom else to turn. My name is Phil. I am a nineteen-year-old college sophomore. I think of myself as a normal, healthy, rather intelligent young man. I got outstanding grades in high school and am studying English and Philosophy at college. I am learning to be a technical writer, but would really love to write contemporary fiction. That is one of the reasons I admire your writing so much. I believe erotica is a legitimate part of the world of literature. Yes, I write dirty stories too. But that is not why I am writing to you. I have a real life conundrum.
I have been fooling around with my own little brother for about six months now. Until now, I have been filled with such shame that I could not even write to you of all people about this. Of course, no one else in the world knows. I have a sort of steady girlfriend, and I have been fucking her for about eight months. She is deeply in love with me and wants to get serious. She is a senior in high school. From reading you excellent stories, I have been making her do more and kinkier things when we have sex. She sucks and swallows, and I fuck her cunt, and I have just recently fucked her ass for the first time. I have an abiding need to become more and more degenerate. I honestly do not know if your stories had anything to do with this...or if it was in me all the time. I find myself wanting to hurt my girlfriend when we have sex.
But the girlfriend or "Cunt" as you would call her is not the problem. The problem is my little brother Devon. I am honestly so mixed up. It all started when Devon walked in on my beating my fuckmeat. I was naked on the bed with my legs spread up over my head and my big dick hanging in my face, pumping away trying to shoot a load on my own face. (You see, I do get some of this from you.) I have always been proud of my big dick. I remember strutting around the high school locker room showing off my meat to the other guys. I still do this at the university field house sometimes. I get off on it. I have a nice big dick.
Anyway, Devon stood there watching me. I saw him at once, but for some reason, I just kept on pumping my pecker, enjoying that he was watching. He had just turned eleven at the time. Now, I don't remember ever having any homosexual thoughts before this, except like all boys taking an interest in how big the other guys' dick were and talking about who they were fucking and so on. I will never know why I let Devon watch, but it started a thing.
After that, I would leave my bedroom door open and make sure he heard me groaning (I groaned extra loud so he would hear and come to look.) I let him watch as I jerked my fucker in all kinds of positions. I let him watch while I shot my big load. I even licked it up to gross him out. I do not know if normal dudes would ever do such things in front of their brothers. Anyway, one day, I invited him to come closer to watch. I stood up and modeled my huge hard on for him. I told him about the girls I was fucking in great detail. I asked him if he wanted to touch it. I swear I do not know why or how this happened. I soon had him pumping on my dick. It felt so fucking good, Sir, to feel my little brother's little brother's hand pumping my dick. His hand felt better than any girls who had ever done it. He was asking all kinds of questions about sex and dicks and fucking. So I gave him some of your stories to read. I hope that does not anger you. I don't know if you think he was too young to read the nasty stuff you write about so eloquently.
I showed him how to pump his little eleven-year-old pecker. I showed him some selfies I had taken of me fucking some of my girlfriends. (I said I had this one steady sort of girl, but like most dudes, I still fuck around a lot.) I realized that I really liked young cunt...girls of ten and eleven. I wondered if this explained my fascination with my little brother...if maybe he reminded me of young cunt? But what normal teen dude does not think about stuffing his sausage into some really young twat? Not that I would ever do it of course. Anyway, I encouraged Devon to masturbate with me in my room or in his. We'd sit and pump for hours, talking dirty to each other. I really loved teaching him every dirty word I knew and talking about the most perverse sexual acts, things I had never done or do not know if I would ever do. The kind of stuff that is in your stories.
I realized that I was trying to seduce my own little brother. I still do not understand why, except that it felt so fucking hot. It became all I thought about. I began to massage him and touch him. I started to take showers with him. When we showered, I would rub my big dick and balls all over him.
He was very shy at first and kept asking me if what we were doing was "bad" and "a sin." Honestly, how the fuck do I know? Right? It's all a mindset anyway. So, I kept urging him to handle my dick more and more, and eventually, I asked him to lick my balls. I went down on him and licked his tiny nuts and his little pencil dick, and then I asked him to return the favor. It took a few weeks of constant work to get him to do it. But then, I had him doing it every single day. I had him licking my dick and balls, and it felt better than any kind of sex I have ever had. From your stories, I was of a devious mind, and I even had Devon lick my dick right after I had fucked Ava, my steady cunt. That's right, I had my little brother lick the cunt slime off my dick and balls. I kept thinking that you might be very proud of me. (I hope you are not disgusted.) I know you would excuse me if you saw how fucking cute my little bro is, a little blond angel with an ass to die for. I am sending a pic, but more about that later.
Forgive the length of this letter. I hope I have not bored you. You are the first person with whom I can be totally honest. My goal became, of course, to get my little brother to suck my dick. It became more important than fucking any girl or getting any cunt to blow me. I mean, here I was with a beautiful high school girl ready to swing on my schlong anytime, and all I could think about was my little brother slurping on my fuckmeat. I read and re-read your stories. I read them out loud to Devon. I had him read them out loud while he pumped my dick. I had the kid licking my dick and nuts regularly, but I had trouble actually getting my fucker into his little mouth. He would gag and then complain that he didn't want to do it. I wanted to get rough with him, but I guess I didn't have the nerve to do that. I got him to come into my room at night and sleep naked with me in my bed. Sometimes I would put his head down by my dick and balls so he could nuzzle my fucker while I slept. He began to lick my cockhead until I would shoot a load in his face. He didn't like spooge all over his cute little face, but I really got off on it. I started to feed him my cum. Like in your stories, I put cum on his food. I had him take it like medicine from a spoon. I made him hold it in his mouth and gargle with it.
Eventually, I got him to suck dick. I don't know if he liked it at first, but I didn't really care. I became obsessed with it. I had him sucking my dick all the time. And that brings us to the present day. I hardly even fuck cunt anymore. All I want to do is feed my little brother my leaking pecker. You know how little brothers idolize their older bros. Well, I guess that is partly why Devon goes along with my sick ideas. I put cum on his peanut butter sandwiches and have him eat them. I put cum in his milk. I shoot cum up his nose and in his ears. Really filthy stuff from your stories. Here is why I am writing to you. WHERE DO I GO FROM HERE, SIR?
How perverted can I get before I have gone too far? I want to try things like in your stories; things with piss and spit and snot and even shit, but I am scared. AND THE BIG QUESTION, SIR. IS DEVON WHO JUST TURNED TWELVE TOO YOUNG AND SMALL FOR ME TO FUCK? OH MY GOD HOW I WANT TO FUCK HIS SWEET, LITTLE ASS. I DREAM ABOUT FUCKING HIS ASS. I WANT IT MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD, BUT HE IS SO YOUNG, AND HIS ASS IS SO TINY. AND IT IS SUCH A FUCKING CORRUPT DEGENERATE THING TO WANT TO DO TO ANY LITTLE BOY. MUCH LESS ONE'S OWN LITTLE BROTHER.
Tell me what to do? I need advice. I also find myself wanting to get more and more rough with him. I want to chew his nipples and even bite down on his little dick. I can't ask you if this is normal because I know it is not but is it even a sane thing to want to do? Is it acceptable to want to shove my dick up his little ass? I keep thinking about just fucking and fucking and fucking him all the time...never letting my cock out of his ass. And I think about fucking him really, really hard.
So, what should I do? Dare I go for it? Should I stop before it is too late? Sometimes he seems so young and innocent that I feel the waves of guilt and shame come over me.
Here is a selfie I took of myself and Devon bathing together. (A sick part of me wants to take some really filthy photos of Devon as well, but I know that is illegal as well as nasty.)
Thank you for taking the time to read this. I welcome any and all advice.
a very troubled Phil